"Some people grumble because roses have thorns; I am thankful that thorns have roses" - Alphonse Karr
When we make choices for our lives, knowing beforehand that they will be difficult, we should not complain when they are. I sometimes forget this. We CHOSE to adopt, no-one told us it would be easy. In fact, we were warned by many about the challenges we would most likely encounter.
Whether you wholeheartedly supported our decision to adopt from the beginning or silently worried about us taking this huge step with our fragile hearts, you were right and we love you for it.
A couple of weeks ago we were floating on cloud nine, we were expecting news of our proposal at any moment. Every time the phone rang, my heart skipped a couple of beats thinking it might be the call we were waiting for.
Then last week we received more bad news and our hopes came crashing down again. Despair and the feeling of utter helplessness set in. Yesterday, another little glimmer of hope and so it goes......
We went into this process with open hearts and open eyes but nothing could have fully prepared us for the high's and low's we have faced. Looking back, I'm surprised that we found the strength to carry on through our dark days. However, if I had known then what I know now, I would still have made this journey to find love and joy.
A few days ago whilst buying plants for Taylor's new garden I found a yellow rose bush and bought it for it's name (Eternal Flame) and suggested yellow colour. Looking at the bare, thorny sticks it's hard to imagine the future beauty that they hold.
An analogy became immediately apparent to me; the thorns we have encountered in the winter of our lives will soon pale in significance to the exquisite roses promised. The thorns will still be present as a reminder of the difficult days and we will embrace them, for they will enhance beauty of the rose.
I have started the day feeling hopeful and positive again and if more thorns pop up we will deal with them, knowing they serve a purpose. When we finally hold our little girl in our arms it will all have been worth it.
We ask for prayer once again. Please pray for the proposal to come through, for continued faith, strength and patience.
Have a beautiful day.